Not that I have any specific weight loss goals for 2012, but I'd better start thinking about them! My blanket goal: lose a grip of weight!!!
So far, so good. I was 295 at my last 2011 weigh-in and yesterday weighed in at 289. I'll take 6 lbs in the new year. At least something is going right (whew -- but that would be an entirely different blog!).
I wonder how realistic it is to keep up with this pace. I don't know. So let's say just to get to 250. That would be awesome. That would be 105 lbs down from my highest weight. I am 39 lbs away from that. So what is a realistic time for that? Like 4 months? Geez -- I am so impatient... that seems like so long. So by May 1 of this year I would be at 250. Hmmm....I don't know. Maybe I need to aim to be that by April 1. I guess I need to think it through more. So by December of this year I could be at 200 lbs. And what sucks is that still won't be good enough. I will have to be at 199. ha. :-)
And I wonder what WILL be good enough ultimately. I look back at all these pictures of myself and think - WOW -- I looked great! But I know that at the time I felt huge and fat and ugly. And that sucks. I know it is getting way ahead of myself, but I think about that a lot. I would imagine even after losing weight (let's say I hit an ideal or near ideal weight by medical standards - not my own) that I would still have a ridiculously awful stomach from carrying so much weight for so long. And what about my arms? And everything else for that matter? My thighs? I don't know.
And really, how stupid is of me to even waste time thinking about that when I still have to lose the weight?! SO stupid.
But I do it anyway. Can't help it. :-/
And I can't believe I have lost 66 pounds since Oct 1, 2010 (including a pregnancy). I just wish I could see it!!! I can feel it sometimes. I do feel better. I notice it with little things -- like sitting in certain chairs or whatever. And of, course, my clothes fit differently. Some are too big. I can fit into some things I couldn't fit into in quite some time. But I still haven't been able to go buy new jeans. I am still in between I guess and my thighs need to catch up to my stomach, hips and butt! Ugh. I did throw away panties that were just way too big. I am 2 sizes down there. And yet not enough down for new pants. See -- must be the thighs! ha. I hadn't thought about it that way before.
So onward and downward! If nothing else goes my way in 2012 -- this weight thing WILL go my way. Totally. HAS TO. I have come so far and worked so hard to get here. It just HAS to.
Anyone else have set weight loss goals for the New Year?
